Well, I mean... I have nothing.
I have no ideas. I have no real creativity here, I have no idea what I'm doing, really. I've been wanting to draw something for a while, but I can't because of my skill level and because I'm just out of it. (Yesterday was just fucking around with ArtRage for a profile picture.)
I'm just not good enough.
That's my first problem. I have more self-doubt than I can handle. I can only feel confident if I think one of my pieces is actually good, but that's few and far between. I keep telling myself that I can't do it, yet my hands keep going on and on and creating something worthless that people will scroll on by without a second look. It's just a process I can't get out of.
Shit, I sound like an attention whore, eh? Ah, don't worry, I'll be gone within a minute here.
I just need something to write about to pass the time, while I waddle about with my issues of finding something to draw about and actually getting down to it without my own mind getting in the way.
And I'm thinking of getting a job as a concept artist? With this fuckin' self-doubt, broken confidence and shitty skill? Yeah, whatever...
I'm gonna go sit over here, yeah, that'd be better for everyone else. Have a good day everyone, I know I'm not. Heheh.